I could not

“Why reproduce if you believe the world is ending?”
“Because the world is always ending for each of us and if one begins to withdraw from the possibilities of experience, then no one would take any of the risks involved with love. And love has to be hanessed by the political. Ultimately what’s ending is a mode.”
“Can you imagein the world if and when I’m twenty? Thirty? Forty?”
I could not. I hoped my sperm was useless.

[Ben Lerner, 10:04
Granta Publications 2014, p. 94]